Saturday, May 29, 2010
I'm sorry to say that I just haven't felt like doing this lately. Things at work are stressful; things at home are pretty unrelenting in a chronic-illness-sucks kind of way; it absolutely will not stop raining outside for love or money and the tomato transplants huddle on the porch and make my idea of a neighborhood tomato tasting party in July seem pretty far fetched, the garden is a disaster; I feel bad about not taking better care of the dog; Liam has yet another cold which makes me worry; it's going to cost about 3x what I thought to paint the house, that is, if we can even find a painter to do it, and the house absolutely must be painted this year; etc.; etc.. It's just a grind and often hard to find anything to notice or enjoy or look forward to most days, or the motivation to look, since, of course those things are out there every day.
So our days go by and like everyone's they are a mix of things, including stolen moments or whole afternoons of peace.
Like the day a week or so ago when Liam started to learn about car engines. He has been asking and asking about them and one Sunday dinner night I finally remembered to suggest that he and both Grandpas and Daddy might like to go out after dinner and see about the engines in the cars. Now we have to discuss where the engine on every car or truck we see. So it goes.